ED: Please note. I am not normally a person who swears or respects swearing but sometimes, with enough annoyances, I guess we all need to sometimes. This IS one of those time and appologies to anyone reading (please don't read if swearing offends).
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F**KING BL**DY G*D DANM F**CKING WAN*ERS!!!!
I am SO fucking sick of software vendors. I've wasted the majority of the day today trying to fucking get control of my own goddamn PC.
First, I can't associate the application I want, placed in the location I desire, with the file type that it uses (since they have gone mad for AppID's and so forth requiring application to be installed and registered with the system). This should have been a fucking trivial task and indeed if I revert back to Window XP it bloody is trivial (how I miss when Microsoft where there to serve the customer [or at least pretended]) .
Why the fucking hell is RPC being used for local traffic application (so I know why, but still in principal)! Lazyness seems to be the simple god-damn answer. They know that there will be senarios where a person will need to do some task or other over RPC so they just write it always to use RPC. Which would be absolutely FINE if local RPC used function calls. NO local RPC has to use local TCP traffic (again, LAZY, no specialisation for a case).
Wednesday 31 August 2011
Saturday 27 August 2011
G19 YouTube player rendered worthless by Google Ad's
Installed the latest G19 software for my keyboard. Looks slick, pleasantly surprised about the UI improvements.
However, the single most usefull feature of the G19 keyboard (the G19 YouTube player) has been rendered worthless because, 3 seconds into whatever clip you choose to watch Adverts appear taking up 1/4 of the entire (already small) display and worse, you have no way of "clicking" to close the Ads.
The result? the in keyboard YouTube player is worthless.
However, the single most usefull feature of the G19 keyboard (the G19 YouTube player) has been rendered worthless because, 3 seconds into whatever clip you choose to watch Adverts appear taking up 1/4 of the entire (already small) display and worse, you have no way of "clicking" to close the Ads.
The result? the in keyboard YouTube player is worthless.
YouTube in player Adverts (Ad's) - Say NO!
So i'm sick of YouTube. The in player Ad's is the last straw!
Don't get me wrong, I don't object to Ad's, but I do object to Ad's interrupting and f**king obscuring my vision. Since we still have choice, lets choose to move somewhere where their decient:
Check out this long list of similar style sites:
http://www.reelseo.com/list-video-sharing-websites/
Don't get me wrong, I don't object to Ad's, but I do object to Ad's interrupting and f**king obscuring my vision. Since we still have choice, lets choose to move somewhere where their decient:
Check out this long list of similar style sites:
http://www.reelseo.com/list-video-sharing-websites/
Microsofts mission these days is to prevent choice!
So, i'm trying to do something simple. I have installed my choice of Media Player application where I want it put (in the Documents folder) and so I make use of the nice feature Microsoft added a while back "Open With..." to make it my default media player for AVI files.
Short version it. Doesn't work.
Never mind, its easy enough to make a file association, always has been. Quick tweek of the registry.
Yep, there we go.. shows up and its all good.
Still doesn't f**ing work.
What happens is, it always, regardless of whats set, runs Windows Media Player!
Now I could f**ing go and unregister the DDE conversations and any other way it might be completing the association (explorer extensions.. whatever) but the simple fact is it shouldn't be so f**king hard in the first place. No value has been added and its eliminated choice. Congratulations again Microsoft on maintaining your monopoly through screwing your customers! well f**ing done :P.
Short version it. Doesn't work.
Never mind, its easy enough to make a file association, always has been. Quick tweek of the registry.
Yep, there we go.. shows up and its all good.
Still doesn't f**ing work.
What happens is, it always, regardless of whats set, runs Windows Media Player!
Now I could f**ing go and unregister the DDE conversations and any other way it might be completing the association (explorer extensions.. whatever) but the simple fact is it shouldn't be so f**king hard in the first place. No value has been added and its eliminated choice. Congratulations again Microsoft on maintaining your monopoly through screwing your customers! well f**ing done :P.
Sunday 21 August 2011
Fucking GOD DAMN Microsoft!!! >.<
Short version:
Performed full system backup using Windows Vista Ultimate. After backup to external drive containing other important similar backups, external drive now has 3 time more free space before backup began!
Microsoft Backup has DELETED all my OTHER system backups >.<.. To quote a Kiwi "Fucking A!"
Performed full system backup using Windows Vista Ultimate. After backup to external drive containing other important similar backups, external drive now has 3 time more free space before backup began!
Microsoft Backup has DELETED all my OTHER system backups >.<.. To quote a Kiwi "Fucking A!"
Thursday 18 August 2011
Lost in Life
I have the skills to work anywhere. The practicality though is that life and work tends to tie a person to a place or area and usually the place or area in which they live. Thing is, as of this time, I am still residing with my family so I don't have a place. I have a local. I don't need to always be near my family.
I need something, someone to give me a reason to be somewhere. The person I would choose to define that is Alex and I would be happy wherever I was with her. Problem is, I can't be anywhere with her without her support and encouragement to be there with her as more than just her friend. Such encouragement is not forthcomming and infact negitive reinforcement is present (it lost me my last job because I paniced in the second stage interview because all I could think about was what she said before the interview "I don't think its a good idea for you to get the job".. "You can hope you get it, I will hope you don't"... "I want you to be out of my place by Tuesday").
So, I don't have any reason to be anywhere. I have lots of minor "whims" of places to be. I have friends in New Zealand, California, Lancashire and I have Alex, the one person in this world who gives me a sense the world is truely worth living for on the South Coast.
There isn't any pressing reason to be nearer any of my friends, excepting Alex and she is the love of my life (sometimes I so feel like the love of hers, usually when arriving at that point soon after I remember all the things she has said, especially "you are the one person I would never go out with" and "I will Marry someone else, I will have kids with someone else"). So why am I still utterly and uncontrollably in love. I have no doubt in that love, I know its right and I know its complete. Sometimes I don't doubt she loves me as much, though everything she says goes against this sense and I don't have complete and utter conviction she loves me completely (though I am she does love me, I am just not sure she loves me with her whole heart as I love her.. and what she says suggests very strongly, possibly unequivibly she doesn't love me. Yet sometimes how she acts suggests contrary to what she says. Lies are HELL, they make a person doubt the truth).
Where do I go now? I know wherever it is, its not here. I don't belong here any longer, I don't fit. I sort of fit in NZ but how much.
I am tired of being perfectly suited for jobs and being turned down based on dumb pre-conceptions. I've heard "spotty employment history" quoted a few times and reciently "over confident" was sited. Over ****** confident! Course I am, I have 15 years of experience and I can work to develop anything on Microsoft platforms. I just need a job I can believe in and when one comes along they seem to have trouble believing in me.
Story of my life, beside family, only one person has ever put their complete faith in me and they still believe. Its just a shame we don't work together.
I need a reason to be somewhere, I need something to believe in that can't/won't let me down.... I know, I know... I am hearing it too... I, I, I, I .. Me, Me, Me, Me.... The sad thing is though, what "Me" wants is someone to believe in who will believe in me, someone who believes in the me I know. Alex sees the real me, though she chooses to not believe (or not to love me as her life partner).
AGGGGG! life.
I don't even know what I want anymore. Alex is all I want/need except that she refuses, is unable, cannot accept me and choose me as hers. How can I want another Alex? shes irriplaceable, shes everything. What can I want / need now?
I need something, someone to give me a reason to be somewhere. The person I would choose to define that is Alex and I would be happy wherever I was with her. Problem is, I can't be anywhere with her without her support and encouragement to be there with her as more than just her friend. Such encouragement is not forthcomming and infact negitive reinforcement is present (it lost me my last job because I paniced in the second stage interview because all I could think about was what she said before the interview "I don't think its a good idea for you to get the job".. "You can hope you get it, I will hope you don't"... "I want you to be out of my place by Tuesday").
So, I don't have any reason to be anywhere. I have lots of minor "whims" of places to be. I have friends in New Zealand, California, Lancashire and I have Alex, the one person in this world who gives me a sense the world is truely worth living for on the South Coast.
There isn't any pressing reason to be nearer any of my friends, excepting Alex and she is the love of my life (sometimes I so feel like the love of hers, usually when arriving at that point soon after I remember all the things she has said, especially "you are the one person I would never go out with" and "I will Marry someone else, I will have kids with someone else"). So why am I still utterly and uncontrollably in love. I have no doubt in that love, I know its right and I know its complete. Sometimes I don't doubt she loves me as much, though everything she says goes against this sense and I don't have complete and utter conviction she loves me completely (though I am she does love me, I am just not sure she loves me with her whole heart as I love her.. and what she says suggests very strongly, possibly unequivibly she doesn't love me. Yet sometimes how she acts suggests contrary to what she says. Lies are HELL, they make a person doubt the truth).
Where do I go now? I know wherever it is, its not here. I don't belong here any longer, I don't fit. I sort of fit in NZ but how much.
I am tired of being perfectly suited for jobs and being turned down based on dumb pre-conceptions. I've heard "spotty employment history" quoted a few times and reciently "over confident" was sited. Over ****** confident! Course I am, I have 15 years of experience and I can work to develop anything on Microsoft platforms. I just need a job I can believe in and when one comes along they seem to have trouble believing in me.
Story of my life, beside family, only one person has ever put their complete faith in me and they still believe. Its just a shame we don't work together.
I need a reason to be somewhere, I need something to believe in that can't/won't let me down.... I know, I know... I am hearing it too... I, I, I, I .. Me, Me, Me, Me.... The sad thing is though, what "Me" wants is someone to believe in who will believe in me, someone who believes in the me I know. Alex sees the real me, though she chooses to not believe (or not to love me as her life partner).
AGGGGG! life.
I don't even know what I want anymore. Alex is all I want/need except that she refuses, is unable, cannot accept me and choose me as hers. How can I want another Alex? shes irriplaceable, shes everything. What can I want / need now?
Saturday 13 August 2011
Update on Life
I am looking now at all the evidence which is piling on about the girl who is still for me the love of my life and I am seeing that whilst there may have been a way we could have been together (could I go back and fix lots of little stupid mistakes) the chances of us being a couple where so remote, so tenious that it wouldn't have happened in 999,999 out of a million outcomes.
Knowing this doesn't really help me, she is still the love of my life.
Is the lesson here to be carefull who you let yourself love? To not love too early?
I am not sure. Had I tried not to love her, it might have changed things for the better, though equally it might have left me filled with regret at not trying hard enough as someone else stepped into place.
Its strange, but a pattern keeps repeating with us. We get closer, she pushes me away, I try to stay confident and we reach a "level" where she doesn't want others but isn't choosing me. She communicates us just being friends. She will meet someone who she will be more keen about. She will, for a while, be good and favour me over all others. She will even not want to see this other interest in her life and spend her time with me. She will want me along with her, but then the "interest" will want to push for "them" time. She can't be said to be leading me on, at least not verbally as her position is clear. Though emotionally, she really doesn't know her position.
It should be over, I should be moving on... I can't.
I need to be saved from myself I think.
Knowing this doesn't really help me, she is still the love of my life.
Is the lesson here to be carefull who you let yourself love? To not love too early?
I am not sure. Had I tried not to love her, it might have changed things for the better, though equally it might have left me filled with regret at not trying hard enough as someone else stepped into place.
Its strange, but a pattern keeps repeating with us. We get closer, she pushes me away, I try to stay confident and we reach a "level" where she doesn't want others but isn't choosing me. She communicates us just being friends. She will meet someone who she will be more keen about. She will, for a while, be good and favour me over all others. She will even not want to see this other interest in her life and spend her time with me. She will want me along with her, but then the "interest" will want to push for "them" time. She can't be said to be leading me on, at least not verbally as her position is clear. Though emotionally, she really doesn't know her position.
It should be over, I should be moving on... I can't.
I need to be saved from myself I think.
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