Life Impact

I was thinking about the way we live and work today, about economy, social structure and everything in between. Something occured to me, we don't often really consider much our overall life impact on the world and on humanity. Even me, and I do think about the effects my life has on others and try to minimise any negative impact (or eliminate) but thats not quite the same as the impact of my life as a whole on bettering the world (and its legacy). It seems like it would be good if all people could look for and establish a "life goal" at early primary school age. They wouldn't have to stick to the goal, but it could be considered and it could be expanded so that by the time where making important life decisions like career direction and so forth we have a greater goal to work for (but also a personal goal because life has to be both about the individual and the group). Then, we could work knowing we arn't just working for the day to day needs of ourselves and our loved ones, but building a future for the whole of humanity.

I look at the jobs many of my friends are doing, and whilst they all require knowledge and all provided "something" theres few jobs where more than 10% of the work is lasting. I think this would be a poor target to set for life but its one we accept somehow. I suppose possibly the problem is that people work for money which in reality represents 10% of the value it is said to be worth at the end of the day.

Also, another factor is that we live in a "throw away" society. Things aren't regularl built for "the ages" and when they are, everyone is trying to make the project cost 90% more than its effort in the persuit of profit (so again, 10% effort though possibly some of those people contriuting 100%.). Thats the thing though isn't it, we tend to generate a 10% result, but we offten have to put in 110% effort (technically impossible, but the extra 10% represents the time we should not be working and is taken away from the 100% which is time for family and friends).

I don't think all people are lazy either, its just that we mostly often don't have a bigger plan...

Take banking, ever day we buy things, food, supplies whatever and its very few people who think about that in any big way, so we need banking which is basicly transactional and short lived (who cares how much my recipt was for coffee in 100 years).

I don't see why we couldn't get more reason into everything we do (though i'll grant i'm not yet sure of the solutions).

For example, if every purcase of food from a store added to a fund to build a hospital then in our daily lives and spending choices we can give the long term meaningless actions in our lives deeper meaning. Whilst the individual purchases might still be irrelivent, the fact that I bought food meant something more than simply keeping someone alive or happy .

The only problem being that the 10% crew (as I now refer to profiteers) will find a way to make our "meaning" into their profits (and possibly diminish and reduce our efforts).

People need money to live, money was invented to defaud the public... ironic?

How do I claim money was invented to defraud the public? Well, money was first used in countries where resources where "scarce" or infact not available (for example in England when the king had spent all the crown gold but still needed the people to fight wars and could no longer afort to buy their loyalties). So, the king used worthless items to represent a "desired" item (eg. Gold) and made it "equivilent" in the minds of the people (moneys value is only as much as we desire or require it). Utlimately though, when the king realised that people now sought the worthless item as much as the valueable item, well, greed set in and if he could keep the people holding the worthless items thinking they where good, all the better.

Now, of course, the Kings didn't say "I have no money, but have this worhtless peice of stuff and fight for me anyway and i'll look after you". They "pretended" they had the money (or, I suppose in some cases the money was like a "token not to get killed" for more ruthless monarchs). Money was a way to keep people doing what the power wanted, which, isn't the same thing as keeping the people doing right or good.

Well, this has degraded spectacularly into a ramble so i'm going to leave it at that.

The main point is, i'm going to try to find a way to bring more longer lasting meaning to every action in my life and I hope maybe we all will too.

Searching the world for the love of my life

In the past i've felt like that. Like I was searching the universe for that special someone, that soul mate. I found her (for me) when I met Alex, she is everything to me (and I know she cares deeply for me too, but just "not in that way"). Then, *sigh* it seems she's everything to everyone who gets close to her, she's the love of everyones life! So, now i'm thinking to myself, are you searching the world for the love of yours? Is everyone?

Somehow, I choose to stay single because I know none of the relationships I could have are right because I don't care for those people in the right ways (also, those people are opposite to me in that they tend (in general) to form a relationship with everyone until they happen to love someone). I know girls who are very beautiful and (thanks to them being very direct) I know they like me (which is always lovely to hear) but I also know I could never be happy with them outside the simple gratification that comes from having someone beautiful that wants me (and that is very gratifying and possibly something to be shared more, letting people know it anyway). Its not simply that they have some minor incompatibilities here, its they have major apposing life style choices (Smoking, Peircing, Tatoos, Drug use, a Player which-ever). Not that they are bad people in any way, just they aren't for me. I'm not a great looker myself, I seek the right heart more than I seek the right looks, but looks aren't unimportant to me either. So, i've got the worst of both worlds, i'm not someone who will just get close to anyone whos around so i'm not alone, I am not someone who will settle based on looks nor based purely on personality (though, I believe this could happen as long as they love me with their whole heart and seek not to hurt me and I can love them), nor am I someone whos going to be happy with just lots of great friends. I'm sounding pretty fussy huh.

Funny thing is, I have to wait to see what happens with Alex! Shes the first person in my life I would do that for. In a way, I almost hope the last too. Otherwise i'll be dead before I know it lol. Alex is the first person I love completely and unreservedly, she has the keys to my heart. I hope she chooses to use them.